I'm tired of being a virtual shut-in...
after 11 years of child abuse I'll be the first to admit that I need help, but their drugs, after 6 different ones, make me worse & the shrinks are no better, how can they be??? they don't have first hand experience of anything people like me went through, not as if anyone of them can tell me what it's like to think the next punch, the next kick is going to kill you, to be at the point when you have given up as the next thing is going to be your death, to be degraded, to be humiliated, what it's like to have to go through that time after time after time, their well intentioned "help" & "advice" is nothing more than insults... "do volunteer work" "do exercise" ... they really don't have the first clue, not as if I can talk to anyone that knows & everyone else senses you're a victim & then go about exploiting you & continuing the abuse... all that's left is being a shut-in...it is a nightmare you can not wake from. their drugs make you ill. their "psychology" is uneducated
I went to god just to see
And I was lookin' at me
Saw heaven & hell there were lies
When I'm god everyone dies
Each thing I show you is a piece of my death
This is beyond your experience